I live in the light, but I carry my dark with me.

I am in one at the moment.
someone short circuited, pulled the plug
pulled the wool over my eyes.

I did it to myself.
I should have studied.
I should have been harder on myself.
Hindsight is 20:20...and I haven't even taken the test yet.

'test'. nothing good ever comes of a word like that.
it's a word you have to spit out.
'exam' isn't much nicer. more formal, just as abhorrent.

here I am again. turning the lights out on myself.
i have an exam and i'm writing to you.
is this self-inflicted sabotage?

Ah well...I will survive (ooooh as looong as i know how to love...)the same way I got through exams many moons ago:" If I don't know it by now, I never will"

Atleast I can sleep easy in blackouts.